Almost forgot that one...

DAY 5

     [My format of notes with my 'reflections' inserted seems to be working rather well. I will continue with this format untill I find something better.]

a movie about hate crimes. caine and abel.

     [jealousy, I really don't know if I spelled their names correctly]

matthew. died, probably a hate crime. sounds like a good guy. laremy wyoming? executed. he must have been homosexual? wrote fag on his door. people

     [I always wonder about the sexual orientation of men who beat up gay people. These tough guys... "Hate is a strong word, but I really REALLY don't like..." them.]

reminds me of the video of drag queens beating the shit out of some tough guys who picked a fight. reminds me if the truck i saw in gelette wy. the "Whit pride truck" with "kc lights and the lift kit"

wyoming community is very close, but they have unpleasant feelings toward minorities.
     [what small town doesn't? Even an outsider that looks exactly the same as the natives is looked upon with suspicion.]

"alone in a prairie, tied to a fence" this is the guy who was tied to a fence and left for dead. they [his family] had to sneak in to the hospital with police to avoid the reporters.

==end matt's story==

james an african american. He was a trumpet player. looks like he was a piano player as well. A gift of music. "self appointed advocate for those who were treated unfairly." he was a grandfather. she would point to the tv whenever his face was on it.

they couldn't ID the body, they had to use fingerprints. they beat him, he was disabled, and probably not as strong as he could have been. they tied him to a truck and dragged him for at least 2 miles, mostly on pavement. they swerved side to side, and elbows were ground down. he died when he hit a culvert. they stopped for a moment, and continued on. he died when was decapatad on the culvert. then they dumped his body in front of a black church.

this "intellectual" has a lot of stuff to say about how white people are the builders of society. they seem to like hitler. aryan nation.
it looks like this guy teaches classes!

     [the director caught me in my unpleasant and aggressive feelings towards D-8@35 (why does blogger hyperlink my place holder for words not suited for a blog?) who think that they are better than everyone else. It's one thing to have pride in who you are, it's another thing to hate somebody else because you think you're better than them]

==end james's story==

Columbine shooting. It was so dramatic because they were so young. where does a a 17 year old mind come up with this plan?

     [i can answer that: anger, hate, hopelessness, rage, and sorrow. What those boys did was terrible, but they were victims long before they committed those acts of hate. I know exactly what it is like to be the 'undesirable' in school. granted, by high school I had learned to deal with it.  But one thing that people don't seem to get is that bad guys are smart. These kids were paying attention to the legislation that was on the table at the time, possibly allowing faculty to be armed (as long as they had a permit to do so).  What is at fault? Not games, not guns, not music, and probably not even parent's. People are accountable for what they do. PERIOD.]

     [However, the situation would not have presented itself if the a554a75 that gave these boys hell would have been taught some manners and discipline.  And what is funny? It is always the sports players that give kids hell. Nothing against sports, but it seems to me that high school football players do more 54177y things to other students and get away with it. That is why high school kids shoot up the school. As for the 'God' question, the movie was very misleading. They didn't kill her because she was a christian, they just wanted her to know that she was going to die. They wanted her to know that THEY were the ones with the power.]

   

jocks were mad because they were beat by eric. so they hurt him. these "killers" were victims. "they were actually pretty nice, like they never wanted to hurt anyone"

===end columbine==

Go elton!!!!

oh god.... the racist again. Wait, did he grow a heart?!? ZOMG! He's against hate!. lol just shows how prejudiced "i" am. i guess the important lesson here is forgiveness? hate breeds hate, but I don't see how a "racist" can see the light and become a man who loves all people.
    
     [It's like my mantra on physical confrontation.  I can always go punch somebody later, but I cant unpunch somebody. I wonder what those people he brutalized think about his 'new leaf']

I wonder what happened to the people that killed james. GO ELTON! parents have the responsibility. hate is taught.

     [Nature vs. Nurture: why are pitbulls so aggressive? Hate is not taught. (I may sound religious here but,) The bible says adam and eve consumed fruit from the tree of knowledge. Before that, we were blind to hate. It didn't exist, but now it does. The Greeks had a similar story, ever hear of Pandora and her box? The reason both of these cultures have an example of hate being 'released upon humanity' is because hate is a universal truth.  unfortunately, it exists. Deal with it. In nature the strong survive and the weak die. If some majority hates a minority and decides to kill them all, then that minority darn well better be able to defend itself. Take Israel for example.]

     [Israel is a shining example of how a minorty can successfully defend itself from hate (as long as it keeps its very strong friends around) Their fighting style shows a lot of that "never again" determination. all is fair in love and war, suffocating somebody with love doesnt help you if they have a gun to your head. They have to be killed, that is all there is to it.]

once again i think of the 10 finger thing.

who's values will we teach? even the racists have values. they just don't include compassion and love.

the holocaust. I seem to remember the saudi prime minister telling his people that it didn't happen.

     [which reminds me of a quote of Eisenhower, "(order) take lots of pictures, because 10, 20, 50, or 100 years from now, some bastard will say this never happened."

religion has caused more deaths than anything. Reminds me of bill meher's religiolous, god doesn't hate? I recall it saying in the bible, that god hates sin.

"hate is a strong word, but I really really really don't like you" --the lyrics to a song by some alternative band. I cant remember.

ZOMG its the westboro bastard! lol, I remember that guy (bowling for columbine, capitalism a love story) talking the westboro guy into the "sodomobile" lol, his face was priceless.

parents are not spending very much time with their children. and the older generation bitches about us. lol.

debrief our children every day. thats a good idea.

[To say nothing is to say it is OK]

"you must be the change you want to see in the world" --ghandi

we must fix our "isms" racism, sexism, ORGANISM. we are living, there for hate exists.

I remember an interview with the westboro guys kid. they asked him what a fag was, he didn't know. he just knew that he hated them. it was a good interview.

woah woah woah, is this a stand off against the westboro peeps? LOL, his face!!!!

Its the same one! from the angels, the freedom riders, and the mike guy who hates guns.

"othering" almost like the redheaded guy that grouped everyone else as others, and his way was the right way. discrimination.
do you need to have the power to opress to be racist?

what if james was a white guy?
what if Matt was straight?
  
     [I sure as heck dont want my murder investigation to be put on a backburner because somebody of a minority race was killed by somebody of a majority race....]